Another week of 5 Minute Friday brought to you by Lisa Jo Baker at The Gypsy Mama! Each week for 5 minutes flat you write on a chosen topic....just write. No editing, no primping, just truth on blog land.
Week 2: Again
Another year has gone by, and again I find myself wondering where the time went. I feel like I really cherish each moment with them, but when I look back over the year it seems like it all went by soo fast. These babies are growing up - if only I could freeze them in their current age. With my littlest baby hitting 14 months, I have the itch.
Ya, know the have another baby even though I technically still have a little baby itch. It's just that those squishy little cheeks are ovary hurting.
For the past 7 years, I have been pregnant again shortly after that 1 yr birthday mark. But not this time. When Rye was born, my dream of continuing on the popping babies every year changed(Birth story). I had dreams of raising a half dozen children with beautiful blonde and red hair. The perfect combination of his eyes and my milky skin. But it wasn't in the plans for our life.
As I go through this year, I can't help but feel sad at what could have been. Don't hold it against me. I know I am blessed but it doesn't make it all better. But again~ I will trust that the Lord has a bigger plan for my life. He has two babies out there that are meant to be part of our family. We were destined for something bigger.
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So precious.
They grow so fast! I think we all wish we could stop time every now and then.
Melissa,
I read this post and your birth story. I have four kids, and decided to get my tubes tied after the forth because my pregnancies are so hard, and my husband believed we were done. I did too...sorta. I am not comparing my decision to your heartache, but I will say that I know at the time I felt God's peace at my womb closing, and have since then had a burden for adoption; had not the option of pregnancy been closed I probably would of shrugged off.
May God lead your family of six as He is leading mine.
Cheers,
Leah
Oh I can't imagine the emotion of knowing you've birthed your last little. Thank you for sharing so beautifully. Glad to have found you from 5 Minute Friday!
Thank you for posting this. You made me realize how blessed I already am to be a mother of six. I used a quote from your post in my post. Click here to check out my 5 Minute Friday
Aww I know the feeling. That itch is a hard one, too. There's nothing quite like a new little baby in our arms. Best wishes to you. Loved the picture of you and the baby. :)
Have a great weekend!
How I've known those itches, Melissa. I truly appreciate the ways you are both honest about the hard and hopeful about the future here. Thank you for your visit to my place, too. You've blessed me.
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